Hellooo~ what updates do I have?
Today is a Sunday. Hmm... 2012 was on Friday. Well on Saturday, I went to school to study!
Was originally planning to go alone. I think it's hard for people to mould to my schedule sometimes - I like to start late. I wake up 10+ am, reach school at 12 and then mug for a little. Normal people usually wake up like, 8am. Me? Nevah. 8 is inhumanely early! That's why I never go to libraries to mug. I heard you gotta be at the National Library AT 8am just to get seats! That's just... insane.

But I randomly saw MW's comment on my FB page, and asked him to go to school too. We kinda ended up doing 1 paper, discussing a few stuff, and went home. Just enough for me - I can't stick at mugging for too long now.
He kept asking why didn't I ask the other phys people. And that kinda got me thinking. I realised I haven't really been the type who's going around asking people out. It's usually Jamie or Ely's role. xD I kinda just follow along. I've always been the one who waits for people to call the outings. I'm lazy that way. xD And if there's nothing, I'll just stay home and do stuff. Or if I need to mug, I just plan on going out to mug alone. Huh. Come to think of it, there may be a socially-inactive side to me after all.

Actually. I think I'm just lazy. xD And Kat, I seriously do NOT want to get up at 7am to travel all the way to City Hall just to mug. =/

Got home, and then my sister had her reunion bbq thingy. I called BEM to come over. And just like old times, we sat at the playground, and talked. Talked talked talked and shared stuff about old friends. It felt great. Actually, "great" couldn't even describe it. I missed them :( Seriously looking forward to days when we can all go out for dinner and stuff. Half of us are having SERIOUS hols soon, and the other half are gonna have hols too! YAY!

Great night.

Woke up this morning at 10.30am, Gawd that's freaking early for a Sunday for me. Sunday's are sleep-till-3pm-days. But I figured, hey since I've been getting a lot of sleep the past few days I can afford this. So I headed out, and was gonna be on time to meet MW, when he messaged me at 11.53am that he's gonna be late and could we meet at 2pm instead. I was kinda hoping to be home at 2. xD Since my plan for today is to do another P1. So I cancelled, and continued taking the train till City Hall since the Subway is the only place I can think of where I can safely mug without getting chased out. Went through my 08 p1 ans, timed prac 07 p1, and then headed home. Very quick.

Rawr my P1.It's freaking annoying. I always get about half the answers wrong. I look back at them, I can understand WHY did I get it wrong. But the same questions do NOT come out. So I get another half wrong again for the next paper. I can understand my mistakes after I've made them, yet I continue to make lots of mistakes. It's frustrating deh.

Oh wells oh wells. Last paper. c'mon!

and I'm excited to get started on Kinetic Typography. xD That adds one more to my list of projects.




Went to watch 2012 with Jamie today! Yep, in the end it was just 2 of us. It was oouuhhhmaaaaiiigosh.
Starting when the destruction was happening we were like leaning close to each other going AAGGHHH! The graphics were so :o. They should totally use it as a motion stimulator game! It's so amazing. The animation and all. Ohhmyyygoodness.
It was really an amazing movie. Though I kept whispering to Jamie throughout it - "They should all die in the end la. If God wanted to end mankind, He wouldn't have left any loopholes." In the end 1,200,000 people survived! -.- Hey, don't call me a sadist, I'm just upset that all the greedy money-loving business-minded people are gonna have their genes passed down. They're gonna kill each other when they have to restart the world as construction workers and farmers.
It was really really sad too. All the characters coming out to steal your heart and then dying off. Like the Prez. He was sooo admirable.

Then headed to Astons for dinner. Went to Daiso before that 'cause the 32nd exco were still in school. And QW was still sampaning. DAISO! I bought a fan to practise the BEG's Sign dance with. xD So tempted to buy so many things. Wheee.
At Astons - Queued for like, damn long! Had something different considering I only just ate my usual a couple of days ago. It was quite a nice dinner and stuff. And then because no one felt like drinking, we bought a Meiji choc and Meiji strawberry and sushi to our usual place to sit down, drink and talk. Played truth or dare, but apparently after you get into JC there really isn't anything interesting to ask during TOD anymore.

My mum sis and bro just came back from their around-the-world trip today. Haha. Look what they brought back.





























Haha. You should see the fridge after they stocked it up man. Amazing stuff. Hey, my family rarely gets to leave Asia - I don't blame them for getting overexcited on the buying! xD Just kidding. I think it's perfectly adequate. HAHA. Chocolates!!!




















Bought this book today for just 10 bucks. TEN MEASLY BUCKS. YAY. It looks like another one of those deranged theories of the scholar kind of compilation. But any knowledge is good knowledge. I've spent years researching on the urban legends but I've never came across anything that links them all together comprehensively. Wish me luck in completing it. At least I won't have to hurt my eyes jumping from link to link searching for stuff. it's just a book. xD Dang I was supposed to buy some light reading for train rides though.

Okay. Off to FB now.




Hmm. For some reason, I felt really sleepy all day today.
Watched the Christmas Carol with some peeps. It was an okay show. Not very exciting, because there was no climax. Quite a lot of booming shocks which I don't like xD but at least that added some action. I think it'll be a better show in 3D. The animation was really good, and you gotta hand it to Jim Carrey for the variety of voices he could do. He was amazing. And if you're a Christmas kind of person, yes I suppose it'll be good for you!

NOW I NEED SOMEONE TO WATCH MY GF IS AN AGENT WITH ME. :D

Had council BBQ at Yingchen's house. FOOD WAS GOOOOOD. Bacon wrapped shittake - WHOO! I pity her parents - they always have to stock up on green tea and wine when we go over xD and meat. lots and lots of meat. I've been eating a LOT of chicken these days. My dinner on Monday, lunch (no breakfast) and dinner on Tuesday were made up of purely potato and chicken. Like, chicken and mashed potato and fries for dinner, bandito chicken and cheese fries for lunch, chicken and potato salad and fries for dinner, etc etc. EVERY meal was just potato, and chicken. OMG. It's chock full of carbohydrates and PROTEIN. Hell, I'm supposed to be suffering from malnutrition because I wanna postpone my period. At the rate I'm consuming chicken now, I'm gonna have it EARLY. Today's BBQ was so full of meat for me too because the chickenchop was omg goood. And the bacon mushroom. Which is technically pork but still. Meat. ARGH! I'm a huge sinner.
Like. What's a diet man. As Mushroom and Louis coined it for me - The only diet I'm on is a meat diet.
Come to think of it, my lunch today was spicy chicken too. OMO. And a kimchi salad. And rice. RICE. MORE CARBO.
Dayum. I'm gonna ask my mum to make my prom dress lots bigger. T.T
Who wants to go swimming with me!

Tmr I shall have... a small lunch. xD
People should have special LUNCHES instead of dinners. Then I'll just maybe eat some fruits or veg for dinner and then TADAA!

My place is getting a little dirty. I don't dare to throw out my notes yet. =/

MUG FOR PHYS. SOON. xD




oh yes. and y'know. I feel like I'm on top of the world.
Literally. Or maybe just Singapore.
Lately it's been raining for every paper. And I thought it was so cool, like OMG AWESOME WEATHER.
And it looks beautiful in NYJC. Lovely dark clouds hovering over the hole in the Drum Building, pouring water in. It feels cooool too.
But apparently everywhere else. From the New paper articles and the Ngee Ann Poly uploads on FB, I see. It's flooding.
It didn't seem that way to me. 'Cause in the past, if it was that bad, I'd see the flooding. I've waded in ankle deep water to my primary school once. All the way there. I've been in a flooded 4th floor classroom in secondary school. I even have the pictures from it, it was so impressive. 1 minute for everyone to shove to one side of the classroom while the merciless rain swept through the window panes.
Apparently NYJC has great infrastructure. xD Goodness I feel like such a privileged kid.


















Sigh.
Seriously, it's over.
In my head it's all over.
Oh yeah baby.
NO MORE. NO MOOORREE.
This ain't the end of promos. Not prelims. No more "Ok, I know I did badly, let's work harder next time!" THERE IS NO NEXT TIME. JUST PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY.
YES MAN.

I swear A levels have driven me nuts.
I get insomnia. Sometimes real bad.
Like 2 nights ago. I went to bed at 1am and heard Ely's message at 2.30am.
Between then, I decided to go to the toilet. While opening the door, I slammed it right into my face.
Ok, technically, not my face. Into my specs. Which proceeded to transfer the force to my eye. By Newton's 2nd Law, my eye hit the specs and the door frame too. yeah.

Went to Swensen's with aunts today. They were commenting about how all the dishes have downsized. I went "Economy is in recession... oh hey, I had my Economics exam today. ^^" "
So my aunt was like how was it, and I was like I dunno how to do. She went :O then how?! And I went well. I'm preparing alternative options already.
xD

Just saw the stuff for SNSD concert.
1st concert sold out in 3mins. Oh my.
I then had this sudden recollection. When SM was releasing the teaser photos, I was all over it. "OMG! NEW SM GROUP! OMG they look soooo young!"
And yes they were. Well, the maknae's my age anyway. I was soooo excited. And then when the first MV for Into the New World came out I raved over it. I kept telling my sister:"I told you LSM is a genius! Look at all the stupid sexy girl groups these days... this youthful, bubbly, sweet innocent girls are sure to get loads of attention!"
But I'd NEVER imagined it would be THIS much.
I just looked at the group name on the concert poster, and yeah was like suddenly struck by how long it has been since their first single.
Made me feel old. =/
It's kind of exciting, though. Watching artistes grow. Can you imagine I've been following BoA's music for 7 years?! That's more than half her career. I watched her from plain and plump to grunge and skinny and now to hot and sexy.
Well. BoA's gonna be one of those rare artistes who can last so long though. She started out young. She's still so young.
These days, in the Kpop world. It's sooo easy to make it. With youtube and kbsworld and all the social networking stuff. It's so darn easy to make it big. Even old groups like Kara and BEG are suddenly hitting it big, and you think it's just because of the music? Nah. It's called the Golden Age. Newbies are having it sooo much easier.
They won't last very long though. A moment of glory, and bang. I'm trying to recall the other performers from BoA's time still performing. Other than groups-disbanded-borne-soloists (Think Bada, Hwanhee...) it's really hard to see the original state of the popstars now.
Anyway, I can't say much. It's been ages since BoA has been back to Korea.

EXCUUUUSEEE MEEE BoA unni. I do love your Japanese songs, but I want to hear you in your native language soon. SOON. Your Korean dance hits are always so much cooler.

I'm so excited about learning new dances. puahahaha.
it really feels like a levels are OVER!


















And I thought I've seen the worst.
I'm totally convinced that Cambridge was on drugs when they set this paper.
Seriously? DO THEY THINK WE ARE FRIGGIN GENIUSES. I mean, I'm sure no one told the syndicate (who would eh) but we were trained to answer specific questions, like, hey they like asking this type of questions and the structure is so-and-so. So if you actually come out with a paper that requires us to THINK, well I think you're gonna be really disappointed. I kind of forgot how to.

It doesn't feel like Econs is tomorrow. I do feel like I'm dead.

I think school makes me sick. I love it and stuff, but for some reason the moment I walked out of Lorong Chuan MRT my throat starts itching and then the sniffles come back. I don't feel as terrible at home, it's at SCHOOL it happens. Omg it's the anti-school-post-A-levels-traumatic syndrome.

Anyway. Physics just rock luh. Before it, anyone who mentions SHINee or SuJu in front of me I'd ask them to stop it, because their faces and songs will be in my head the whole paper and then I can't concentrate. I don't give a damn now. You can say their names down because I really don't care about the rest of the papers anymore, but say the word EXAM and I'm gonna wallop you. To somewhere, maybe Hong Kong, I dunno. I'd give you a great kick in the ass akin to a free flight to your dream holiday.

ARRGGHHH! *pulls hair out* I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN CHEATED OF SO MUCH BRAIN CELLS!

I feel like Youtubing my days away now. I'm just in no mood for anything.
Every damn thing reminds me of Physics. I see pivots, voltages and transverse waves everywhere.
And now I'm gonna have to think of policies to solve some goddamned unemployment or inflation problem, since it seems like the favourite for tomorrow's paper.
Well honestly speaking, MOE-Cambridge geniuses, if I really knew how to solve economic problems I'd be in the Ministry now. We're just churning out stuff from the book. And from teachers. The whole book is just full of assumptions, assumptions, assumptions. It's like some make-believe world of "You, me, we sell, okie?" kind of crap. It doesn't really apply. Why do you want to read our essays about stuff which do not apply in real life!
No wait before you go there, I do NOT wish for you to set papers that asks us to come up with solutions to real-life problems. You got that right - I'm not smart enough to think of those.
If I am I could be making big bucks right now!
But I'm not.
So yeah, I dunno, I have no idea how you should have set your papers but either way.
This sucks, y'know?
You probably get that all the time but this really sucks man.


















Econs. Was so weird. I think I was totally out of it.
After leaving the MRT I suddenly realised why I used Tamiflu as an example in my paper.
'Cause I was having a floo! xD
The weather is still freakin' awesome. Too bad I'm not in the mood to enjoy it.
Missed my bumblebee jacket a lil' today, but it's okay because I hope my brother and sister are using it in... well, I think today's Shanghai. Hope it keeps them warm in Switzerland! I was looking at the rain and was wondering how cold they'll be. Lucky they brought extra jackets. My brother needs to go jacket shopping - I made him bring my jacket along because it appears he only has one jacket which he fits in. -.- I have like... at least 7. HAHA. I'm a jacket nut.

I went to the minimart today to buy chocolate. Saw Jonard's favourite chocolate, was thinking about buying it. Then realised it'll be more than a week before he's home. So I was thinking about buying it just before he comes back, then realised that he'll be coming back from one of the Lands of Chocolate. HAHA. I'll be waiting for HIS chocolate, more like!

Stupid As. I think next year I'll be worrying much for my future. Seriously. Maybe I should go camp outside SME and beg them to take me in as a cleaner.

ohmaigee.

Enjoy in the meantime I suppose. Oh wells!

4 papers left. Alright man. xD

kboxkboxkboxkboxkbox
dancedancedancedancedance
playplayplayplayplay

I CAN (ALMOST) SMELL IT NOW.




Ok. I'm gonna just procrastinate studying for Econs a liiiittle bit longer.

These days I sometimes find myself asking, well, myself. Why the hell did I sign up for this? 2 years of telling everyone how JC is so not worth the effort and time and Poly education would be so much more practical, and here I am sitting for one of the most stressful (and useless) exams of my life.

I'm not exactly dying. I've been slacking, procrastinating, mind flying away, and regretting.

I just wonder why do I always end up doing thing I said I didn't want to do in the first place. Right now I sure hope my future doesn't turn out the same way. I still have my old dreams - I'm attempting to dream new ones.

Right now, I really wonder why the hell did I sign up for this.
Considering all the crying and struggling and getting past beyond humiliation.
Considering all the unhappiness and toughness and learning through tribulations.
Considering all the wrongs and uglies and discerning missing from infatuation.
Well. can't say it's exactly been a really smooth and disney journey.
But. I guess in every chapter of your life, no matter how much you regret looking back, you'll also find some reasons which tells you it's worth the regret.
I guess I've met a lot of people and done a lot of things and well. It's Fate.
It's kind of interesting. Right now we're looking at each other going "Omg, it seems like just yesterday that we were having fun in PAE..." but once I start trying to think of the little events it adds up to a lot.
And then I suddenly realise - 2 years has been a very long time.

Oh wells. Now's not the time to get mushy anw.
HAHA. Back to Econs la.
Maybe when (if?) I start work I'll probably get so much free time I'll take my time to compose numerous thank-you speeches here.
buhbye now.




*sniff sniff* my favourite weather isn't doing me any good. :(
Jamie Tan's sick too. Get well soon!
I thought I was sensitive to something in the hall. But now my throat is still weirded and my nose keeps running awaaa~aaayyY~
I thought I was gonna blow my brains out in the shower but my nose is just being a bitch and not letting it all come out at once.

=/

The side of my face smells funny. My mum brought back a new product from Loreal (thanks to her neighbour xD what a wonderful thing it is, having a makeup distributor for a neighbour!) and I've just tried a bit of it on the side of my face to make sure I've got no allergic reactions to it before I start using it.

Hmm. Still haven't confirm my job with Rolang. Shall remember.

Tomorrow's Econs! T.T 2nd time I'm saying this. Rawr.
Very, very scared.


















Sigh.
Sometimes maybe aiming lower makes yourself happier.
Like Jodi says
Happiness = Reality/Expectations
So when you expect less, happiness increases.
Sigh. Oh wells oh wells.

Starting fandom on a new SM artiste ALWAYS has this effect on me.
Making me distracted and all.
Sigh. NO NO NO NO NO!
Go away SHINee.
Tomorrow's Econs.